I Am Sanctus..

| | | | | |

time.10:20 AM

Jul 15, 2008

time. that time i surfed this webby named howstuffworks.com or sth liddat, i chanced upon sth very interesting, called time.

bout all these super chim stuff on time, special relativity from einstein.. basically i read bout how time moves slower if an object travels near or faster than the speed of light. how i wish i could do the opposite of that rite now. time really nids to travel faster for me now. the recent pile up of tests, projects, assignments and events of life for me. has really taken its toll on me. plus now can't really see my baby often. sumtimes these things really set my mind wandering about and thinking a lot. i gotta admit, sadness does overcome me. when things do not go my way, i ask myself why. and if i think that i'm helpless to do anything to help my cause, i wallow in my own world of sadness and depression maybe? well, might not be depression. but i guess u all know wad i'm toking about yea? haha.

i'm starting to put more expectations on myself. is that a good or a bad thing? when i fail to live up to expectations, i would be angry at myself. but due to past experiences, whu would appreciate me when i do exceed my expectations? yeah i hope distinctions would be coming my way, but if they don't, it aint the end of the world man. i really hope to do well in poly, and i think i'm doing quite okie now. hope this continues throughout the rest of my 2 years in SP ba.

hope is motivating me to wait for my baby. might be a few months, might be a few years.

i think i can do it. =)