feeling bad.9:46 PM
May 18, 2010
recently been tortured by an illness called flu.
feeling so sick and terrible.
fever comes when temperature's too hot.
runny nose comes when temperature's too cold.
is there any "ideal" temperature when it comes to flu patients?
mood's getting real bad during these few days too.
hope i recover soon enough to carry on pia-ing for fyp.
screwed up my stats quiz today too. stupid ogive.
really hope i can buck up for this module.
but it doesnt really help when the cyclist's like talking to himself during lectures.
zzz.
made a decision not to take a pic with her today.
didnt wanna betray my conscience.
its morals, logic vs feelings, instinct.
sometimes i really wish i didnt have a brain.
so i would not be able to process thoughts.
and reach supposed rational decisions after the thought process.
there are some pple who i believe are fated with one another.
pple like ur family (obviously), and also those close friends.
i always ask myself.
why me? why not others?
but of cos in times of despair and sadness.
this group of people is always there.
no matter whether it is cracking jokes with them.
or just simply making some retarded comment.
you know u simply can do stupid stuff in front of them and still look normal.
haha.
but i gotta say.
i'm reaching my limit for u alr.
i dunno why after all that has happened.
i'm still pacing forth and back between the lines of not caring, or just care blindly.
i also dunno wad attraction u have towards me.
i think i might just have succumbed to stupidity and irrationality for u.
however.
it is all going to stop ba.
i tolerated.
when u treated me like a fool and an idiot.
i forgave.
when u said sorry for wad u did.
i believed.
when u said u treated me more than just a normal friend.
i hoped.
that all these were true.
but now.
i realised.
that it was all but an illusion.
that i harboured towards u.
i'm gonna let go.
goodbye.
