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been balling quite a lot recently!
just came back from khatib court today..
qie with quite a lot of strong people..
physically.. skills wise.. all stronger than us..
but it was fun and challenging to see how we could stand up to them..
believe that i can improve on my plays and my skills!
haha..

gonna be 1am soon..
yet i'm quite energetic..
feels as if i'm revisiting the past..
haha..
memories of the past flooding back..
i just dun know why u have a hold on me..
cruel fate and destiny tho.. =O

haih..

i'm dead tired from all the travelling today.. even though i just drive..
but its damn taxing on me.. haih..
morning bball with usual gang from 9 till around 1-2..
lunch with jimmo, venny, kl after that and went home to pass venny stuff..
kuku was damn lucky to retrieve her lappy back after she left it in a cab..
lucky or wad man.. lol..
still karma.. u so much bad karma.. where got karma got good things..
haha..
after that.. vivo to collect dad's phone..
MBS to pass dad phone and to redeem vouchers..
then finally back to dad's place.. for man utd's victory over everton! woohoo!
hernandez rox man.. seriously..
and finally home.. been quite sehhh for tonight and planning to slp early..

but there's one thing i wanna get off my mind..
its about this word which people rarely do have..
even though they might talk about it..
or wad not...
Commitment.
in a situation now where i have no commitment from the other party..
but i dunno if i wanna put in the commitment..
very conflicting..
dun wanna think about it..
but its like a niggle on my mind..
hope things will improve.. =D

i think.. thats all for today..
not really in the mood or have the NRG to blog so much today..

after yet another day has flown past..
was out with venny at northpoint timezone, for our daily dose of djmax technika 2!
been training this game cos the music is really nice and the skill involved is =O..
hope i can do better and better for it!
came up with a crew which involves me, venny, and the always kuku mer..
hopefully we 3 can chuang tian xia with our not-so-pro skills lols..

really hate insomnia at the wrong times..
i mean.. give me insomnia or adrenaline when im doing sth..
not when i wanna slp.. hope i dun carry this over to my bmt..
if not.. GG-fied..
many things running thru my mind while i'm typing this or even doing other things..
maybe sometimes i think too much..
maybe its all the time..
but i just cant help it..
this is just me..

my ability to just emo instantly i think is unmatched among my peers..
some say its as fast as a flick of a switch..
i say its faster than that..
lols..
i'm entering the period of life where i feel that my meaning in life is starting to fade..
nid to search for it again..

this is like my own unique chronic disease..

after a very very very long hiatus..
i'm back..
liked this blogskin a lot thus am using it for the foreseeable future..

been thru quite a lot since the last time i blogged..
its been almost a year..
FYP.. Exams..
graduated smoothly from SP..
end of my poly life..
when i look back as i always do on life..
realized that heaven has been kind to me..
in blessing me with friends that i've met at poly..
really nothing like those pple i met in the past..
lols..
but wadever ba..
got good results le can just zao..
no nid to care too much..

just received my enlistment letter..
aug 22 9.45am bmtc hq at tekong..
19 wk bmt..
i think either i'm gonna come out like another person..
or i'm just gonna die inside..
either way life's not gonna be easy once i'm inside there..
first things that i thought of when i received the letter gave me a sinking feeling..
its just nice that u re-entered my life at this period of time..
things are gonna change so drastically within this year i guess..
no more enjoying of the times that we had..
and maybe time for me to change my thinking..
and review my actions.. yet again..
i've never felt so conflicted in my life before..
just hope that there will be a perfect solution to this..
maybe when i cease to exist..
will there be peace and harmony amongst all..
hope it does not have to come down to that..

for now, just enjoy the time i have with you, you and you..
all of you..

results can be summarized as below:
ups and downs.

got a few ups, and there's also the inevitable downs.
biggest disappointment was engrg thermo.
75 nia. sibeh disappointing.
sub 1 wrong formula = 17 marks gg.
hahaha.
nvm shall work harder in sem exam then.

life's like going thru the motions now, with the notable exception of fyp.
chiong-ed like hell yest, and feeling good about it.
blessed with the 2 good teammates i have in acap and ah wei.
we shall complete this fyp and make it to the tentage!
=D

Exams coming soon.
Feeling the heat.
Sensing the pressure.
oh f the caps. hahaha.
studying real hard but got a feeling i'll pass thru this test unscathed. =D

looked at the glutinous chicken that mum made on the table.
sent many thoughts to my head.
mum's staying home most of the days.
doing nth but housework.
cooking.
cleaning.
washing.
making sure that me, sis and bro eats well.
lives well.
i'm thinking if that was me, i would be better off dead.
like no life sia.
haih.

dad too.
slogging like hell.
waking up every morning at 5 plus.
despite his age.
supporting us and giving us a good life.

i really respect my parents.
sometimes my heart really aches.
dun really know wad i can do for them.
standard answer would be to study well and get a good job next time.
so that they wont worry.
but i'm thinking.
is life just a continuous cycle.
of parents that see their children grow up to be parents.
and to see their grandchildren grow up as well?

i really dunno.
i really hope life's more than that.
=(

still feeling so damn sick!
coughing like mad throughout the day.
had a fever, which i attributed to not drinking enough water.
imagine.
no water from breakfast time around 9am till 5pm?
gosh. i dunno why i dun automatically reach for water when i'm thirsty.
guess SP should just build a water cooler outside every toilet?
that would do wonders for our health!
hahaha.

dun really when i will recover from this latest bout of illness.
do hope that i can recover, and will recover asap.
dun wanna die so young. hahaha.
if by the weekends still havent recover,
gonna seek doc's advice i think.
no point self medicating and seeing no improvements.
i think there're alr 12 tablets worth of panadol cold relief in my system now.
dun wanna suffer from overdose too. lol.

dun think i going to class tml. stay home, slack, rest, play ps3, OWN!
nid to fire myself up for FYP and MST soon.
if not grades are gonna go...
down down down down down.. =X
i like the feeling of blogging.
think i should do it more often.
to satisfy my urge of telling the world wad i think.
or not.
i'm not even too sure about that myself. =)

bballing and continuing with life!
busy and super tiring day..
after yet another day..
after a long hiatus..
results and life.
Dad and mum.
feeling sick again. =X
feeling bad.
start of sch.
how worthless am i to some pple?

i wrap my world in you
all you can think is yourself
this is a time i have to leave
i'm in this by my self
-ignite-

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Erick Renaldi aka Brown Sugar
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